Hello Kids,
I've decided to come at this with a different slant. Talk more to you about day to day, what I'm thinking, or something similar. I realized that an awful LOT of my childhood memories are not happy ones, and I don't want to depress you! So, as I think of the good ones, I'll share them, and I'll share other things, as well....AND try to leave the 'preachy' behind. You'll be happy about that, I'm sure! :)
I've been thinking about my parents quite a bit, lately. I realized the other day they had been married 32 years when Dad died. That's a pretty long time. And, they seemed happily married. As I look back, knowing what I know now, I could say their love was pretty dysfunctional. But, who am I to say that, after all? They seemed happy and quite content with how they loved one another. Nobody told them they were 'doing it wrong'. They did it the best way they knew how, and that way was totally ok for them.
The older I get, the less I understand, honestly. There was a time (when I was still really, really angry) when I scoffed at their love, thinking "I'll never love like that!". But nowadays, with my being a little older and wiser, maybe, I realize we are ALL dysfunctional in one way or another. Who am I to judge how they loved? To them, they loved well.....and now I see that that was a blessing in itself...
I miss my parents. I can truly say that and mean it, now. I wish they were here. I wish you could have known them. As I get older I'm beginning to realize the importance of family, and making the effort to keep in touch. For me, it's always been a big effort. But nowadays I'm thinking, maybe it IS worth it...?
Love you,
Mama
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